It's all up to you

Yesterday MH and I watched Dr. Oz (my favorite show) it was a really good episode. It was about married women that were overweight and they let their weight affect the intimacy in the marriage. Even though their husbands told them that they loved them and that they were beautiful just as they were, they couldn’t believe it and they didn’t feel attractive. Their low self esteem and self concept made it impossible for them to accept the unconditional love that was being given to them. Unfortunately I can relate to them on one level. For years I would make remarks about how big and unattractive I had become. MH would always reassure me that he loved me and was still attracted to me. However I couldn’t believe he could really love me the way I was and I think the reason for that was because I couldn’t love me the way I was. I was blessed enough to have unconditional love from a great man but I couldn’t recognize it because I was unhappy with the person I had become. You have to be happy with the person you are instead of waiting and thinking you will be happy with who you hope to become. Losing weight was what I wanted and I had to do it for myself. I couldn’t do it for anyone else and no one else could do it for me. Every time I would complain MH would tell me that he was happy with me the way I was but that if I was not that I should do something about it. Which brings me to another point; no one can make you ready to lose weight. I think the first time I said something about needing to lose weight was about 6 years ago. In that 6 year span I gained weight instead of losing but I continued to complain about how big I was. MH and I were talking the other day about how you must get your mind ready to make a change. Until your mind is in the right place your waist line won’t be either. I wanted to be smaller but my mind was not right, I was not mentally ready to be committed to what I needed to do to lose the weight. Until 4 months ago that is! I decided that I was tired of feeling unattractive and I refused to be thick and thirty. All those years I wished that I was smaller but wishing on stars is for babies and crazy people. No one can do it for you, so if you find yourself wanting to make a change but unable to do so. The only person to look to is yourself, you have to put your mind to it or else nothing you will do will succeed. You can have all the help, motivation, support, gadgets, pills, oils, teas, creams, and DVD’s you want but until you are ready all you will really have is some STUFF taking up space in your home, life, and your body.